LMM 23 Let Go and Fly…you have wings

“You’ve got to jump off cliffs all the time and build your wings on the way down”…Ray Bradbury

“I saw the angel in the marble and carved until I set him (her:Lucinda) free”…Michelangelo

I remember watching my daughter take off on her bicycle for the first time… she flew across the common fast and confidently, then she looked back towards me and crashed. No bumps or bruises were stopping her…she got up, was back on her bike in seconds, and continued to fly. She trusted her little wings.

I have learned many skills during the last six months, developed new habits, questioned my old patterns of behavior and moved forward in many areas of my life. Everyday I plan a challenging activity to recover my true self and chip away at the exquisite marble. My highest self resides encased in that beautiful marble. I trust (more and more) that my fledgling  wings are emerging and flourishing to carry me forward fearlessly.

one love

Lucinda

MKMMA LMM SNAPSHOT 22

Take another shot; your life will change as the pictures and thoughts in your mind change. Recently, I was sorting through old photos and boxed mementoes from years ago.  This experience has, in the past, been a surefire trigger for memories and feelings that have built a safe room trapping my future self. The memories were stark, sometimes sweet, at times a glimpse of abandoned hopes and dreams. It was different this time. I was thrilled to see my happy moments and accomplishments shining–melancholy and regret were taking a back seat.

The negative voice in my head is clearly and progressively fading, becoming faint and powerless. I am NOT rewriting history. My thinking has changed and my focus has changed. I am able to apply the seven laws of the mind (more) skillfully and more quickly.  I choose to flip destructive thoughts and feelings; transforming them into positive, productive action.

I feel alive, exhilarated, and excited about my future. Miracles are happening every day and the music of life is  playing my song.

ONE LOVE

Lucinda

I Love You. I always keep my promises.

Source: MKMMA LMM SNAPSHOT 22

LMM 20 POWERLESS & POWERFUL

I am powerless over… another human being, my past, my son’s recovery. I am powerful when I nurture myself, stop judging others, and let go of any expectations. Understanding this concept was easy  but I never  applied it to my own life.  I fought against everything: cajoled and begged, wished and hoped— truly believing everything would change if I just stood firm and tried my best. So it goes, on and on , and nothing changed. I inhaled LET and exhaled GO–begged the universe to intervene–prayed to God–kept food and exercise logs–went to boot camp—going through the motions but taking no steps. The results — my spirit was crushed and my external circumstances were increasingly chaotic and unpleasant; my thinking was cluttered and I was blind to opportunity. Unyielding and stubborn, standing still and firm;  I believed I  was doing my best in difficult circumstances.

A cluster of dramatic and life altering events occurred in rapid succession. Major surgery for me, a major health crisis for my son soon followed–now  I  was swamped. I needed to find a place to live as a transitional living situation  with a family member was not working out. I was overwhelmed by the circumstances of my life and had not found the way to heal my spirit and make changes on the inside; serendipity came to play a few months earlier and  I  enrolled in  MKE. It turns out, just in the nick of time. I began to think of it as a magnet pulling disparate pieces into a whole. The dictionary definition of serendipity explains that “if you find good things without looking for them, serendipity–unexpected good luck–has brought them to you”.  And the pieces were starting to come together, not quickly, but steadily.

Surrendering to my life “as it is” has brought new opportunities and peace of mind.  The pleasant (good) and unpleasant (bad) stand in juxtaposition yet both offer positive feedback  to my healing soul.  I am beginning to believe (it to be true) as Og Mandino states in “The Greatest Salesman in the World”, “each misfortune I encounter I carry in it the seed of tomorrow’s good luck. I must have the night to appreciate the day. I must fail often to succeed only once”.  Surrender (accepting situations where I am powerless) is beginning to feel powerful. Standing firm and unyielding has softened and i  am able to step forward, a few steps at a time, more frequently.  Amazingly, my son has begun to physically walk a few steps at a time; a profound metaphor for my life.  My heart and soul have opened and many opportunities have ricocheted into manifestation. I like the person I am becoming (future self) and will honor and maintain a sustained and loving friendship with her.  I see her standing on the horizon;  happy, whole, healthy, kind, loving, and giving, with no expectation of reciprocity,  yet also receiving all gifts;  from any source,  with grace and gratitude. ONE LOVE.  Lucinda

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MKMMA LMM18…Freedom

Often, I have thought about the idea of personal freedom; but when I answered a seemingly simple question, soon began to realize I had created a prison for myself.  I was content with the idea that I was autonomous and thinking freely,  moving  at will.  Outwardly, I seemed to be a free spirit, independently negotiating the world.  It was far from the truth and clearly a case of  me pretending not to know–quite a shock to my core.  It turns out my answer to the question “What am I pretending not to know?” was two sided…my first answer surprised me…” I am powerful beyond measure. I can be what I will to be”.  It soon turned into “I live in a mental prison and I am the last to know”.  I became really uncomfortable with my answer.  I reflected and meditated,  continuing my reading and studying,  at times feeling the glow of freedom,  other times the anxious loneliness of a self-imposed prison.

This is it.  My life depends on freedom. Freedom of choice, thinking, being…I am emerging as the person I intend to become and I know the difference.  My battle has been tough this week…..but I persevere.

ONE LOVE

Lucinda