Every cell in my body is telling me “this is it” and “time to quit”. I choose to persist and fight this fight. I have come to think of Master Key as my cage fight, my MMA battle with past demons and unfinished emotional conflicts. Current heartbreak and my love for my stricken son can’t stop me. I have struggled during the last few weeks as I deal with a major health crisis with him. My readings and lessions have not been perfect, but my studies are the necessary foundation to bring me through a very sad and difficult time. Many of you have reached out and shared inspirational accounts of loss and courage. Dealing with critical healthcare decisions has been painful and at each turn the options have been constrained by insurance coverage or lack of available and optimal treatments. Brilliant physicians and nurses offer hopes of intervention and recovery but are unable to see their plans carried through.
Throughout this, and through all of you, my higher self has seen the compassion and kindness of so many. My instinct tells me to keep to myself and persevere without help. My old self believes I can survive in a bubble, as in the eye of the storm, with chaos swirling around. I have run my life as a warrior princess, fighting righteously as if I can conquer the world with sheer will. The warrior screams, desiring to pick a fight for what she perceives as just and necessary. This fight cannot be won with will, regardless of the strength.
I have shared tears with doctors and nurses. We know this situation is not in our control, a higher power is at work. And side by side with great pain I have observed the very best human beings have to offer. I am able to see this because of my master key studies, we are all of the same universal substance. There is an abundance of love. Love in all situations. I am grateful for love, light, and prayers reaching my son and I. Thank you. Thank you.Thank you.
So I trod on, we are all in this together. I love you.
One Love Always…no turning back.