Every cell in my body is telling me “this is it” and “time to quit”. I choose to persist and fight this fight. I have come to think of Master Key as my cage fight, my MMA battle with past demons and unfinished emotional conflicts. Current heartbreak and my love for my stricken son can’t stop me. I have struggled during the last few weeks as I deal with a major health crisis with him. My readings and lessions have not been perfect, but my studies are the necessary foundation to bring me through a very sad and difficult time. Many of you have reached out and shared inspirational accounts of loss and courage. Dealing with critical healthcare decisions has been painful and at each turn the options have been constrained by insurance coverage or lack of available and optimal treatments. Brilliant physicians and nurses offer hopes of intervention and recovery but are unable to see their plans carried through.
Throughout this, and through all of you, my higher self has seen the compassion and kindness of so many. My instinct tells me to keep to myself and persevere without help. My old self believes I can survive in a bubble, as in the eye of the storm, with chaos swirling around. I have run my life as a warrior princess, fighting righteously as if I can conquer the world with sheer will. The warrior screams, desiring to pick a fight for what she perceives as just and necessary. This fight cannot be won with will, regardless of the strength.
I have shared tears with doctors and nurses. We know this situation is not in our control, a higher power is at work. And side by side with great pain I have observed the very best human beings have to offer. I am able to see this because of my master key studies, we are all of the same universal substance. There is an abundance of love. Love in all situations. I am grateful for love, light, and prayers reaching my son and I. Thank you. Thank you.Thank you.
So I trod on, we are all in this together. I love you.
One Love Always…no turning back.
Lucinda
Inspirational Lucinda! So much love and prayers for you and your son during this difficult time.
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Trod on, trod on!!!!!!
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Love to you too. Your son is whole,perfect, strong, powerful.loving, harmoious, and happy. We are in this thing together.
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we can do this ❤
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Prayers for you, your son and his care providers, may they have wisdom in his hour of need. God be with you!
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speechless. You are an immense baken of light.
xxx
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Life certainly can present a lot of challenges. Nice blog, Lucinda. That higher power is fascinating. One of my favorite sayings is, “If I want to make God laugh, I tell God MY plan.” Love and prayers for your situation.
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One Love Always….
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LIkewise with James above, Our prayers go out to you, your son, and his care providers. Everything will work out well in accordance with HIS will. God Bless!
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Words cannot express the pain of a mother watching a child suffer when she is unable to fix the problem. May God give you strength, persistence, wisdom, perception, and resources to achieve your son’s best benefit and healing. May God wash him in the healing water of life and light.
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love to you ❤
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Prayers and God Bless & Keep You.
Juneta’s MKE Blog
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Wow, what great strength you are showing in a very trying time in your life. You and your son are in my prayers.
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Hugs and prayers!
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Your strength, determination inspires all of us at MKMMA. Lots of heart, thoughts and prayers
coming from me and the entire Alliance. God Bless both you and your son.
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Thank you! We can do this…❤
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You are so strong Lucinda! Prayer is a powerful resource on our journey and every thought of God is a prayer. May faith encourage you to believe that all things are possible. I pray there are many blessings coming your way. “Be renewed by the spirit of your minds – Ephesians”
God Love YOU and so Do I!
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Thank you. ❤
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Lucinda 😦 Hugs to you! My heart goes out to you and your son. Your posts take me back almost 40 years when I spent nearly every day of 17 months at the hospital, with my first husband. He too had a brain tumor. “Trod on…” I’m so glad you have the MKMMA in your life right now.
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If words come out of the heart, they will enter the heart. ~ Rumi
Thank you Lucinda for sharing your experience with us. I am moved beyond words. And in silence my heart reaches out to you.
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Oh edina c…your words bring great comfort… I could not play the youtube clip and i am curious? what is it? i can look for it…one❤love..
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Thank you, Lucinda. I’ve been thinking about you all this evening. I don’t know if I can find another way for you to hear this, It’s a piano pc, a gentle, soft piano piece, by Silent Emotion.
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I will look on youtube…i am very thankful for your kind and gentle thoughts.
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Soothing and gentle…❤ i found it.
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Wow! After reading all of the above, and then this beautiful music started playing, I too, am speechless. This just brought me to my knees. Thank You for sharing, E!
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the music e shared was incredibly comforting ❤
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loved your post, thank you very much for your inspiration
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“but my studies are the necessary foundation” You are an inspiration, so grateful you are in my life. Think of you every day dear friend! Stay the course and how ever small a step may be. celebrate it! Much love!
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If words come out of the heart, they will enter the heart. ~ Rumi
Lucinda radiates love in every word she expresses.
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Absolutely love this! In listening to Edina’s piano share, I immediately closed my eyes, started praying for you, and in my silence, I could absolutely Feel conjoined with all of you here! We are One! Love, Courage, and Strength to you, my Sister…. 🙂
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You are nature’s greatest miracle….
Sending you and your son much love and prayers….courage…..peace….strength…
Big hug to both of you….from my heart…..
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From one heart to another I pray for you and yours….a gigantic blessing heading your way!
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I was deeply touched and moved reading your blog. My prayers go out to you, your son, and family. Even through this difficult period that you’re going through, I commend you for still being able to share your thoughts which shows me that you are whole, powerful, strong,
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Thank you for your support…sharing is new for me. Your thoughts bring comfort. one❤love Lucinda
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Light and Love to you and your son.
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We ARE in it together Lucinda and even though wee walk through the valley of the shadow of death we will fear no evil. Why because of that word THROUGH. We set out to go to the other side and we will overcome all difficulties to get there. The difficulties are actually building strength and power within us. They are opportunities in disguise.
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ONE LOVE Lucinda !
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All my love and thoughts and prayers to you and your son Lucinda ❤
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